Today I am feeling very grateful for something that didn’t happen – strange but true!
I had been wanting something to be fixed from the past, from someone else and it seems that this is not possible. Gutted to begin with and quickly followed by a sense of freedom. Freedom to be myself, finally, after a number of years.
Many years ago I left an abusive relationship. Mental, Emotional, financial and narcissistic abuse. It has taken me a long time to heal if I’m honest, maybe longer than it needed to. That is partly due to other life situations that got in the way of my healing. It is the financial aspect that probably has held me back the most and it has taken me years to actually see it for what it is, and was.
So why am I grateful about this? I had hoped that I would have some recompense for what happened however it appears not. Of course it all makes sense to me now, I was financially abused. What it has meant is that I now feel free to be more honest about myself and who I am, my past and subsequently what I can offer my clients.
Many of the people that I attract into my healing practice are sensitives and/or have been on the receiving end of some sort of abuse – partners, family, friends, work colleagues. Even though I have not overly publicly promoted this, energetically I have drawn them in. And why wouldn’t I? I have first hand experience of both.
Abuse can have a terrible effect on an individuals sense of self. When we are a sensitive it can be even more damaging; it is not as easy to just walk away early on.
If you have been affected by abuse and are ready to heal then I am here for you. In the meantime if you’re not sure what counts as domestic abuse go here and read more about me here.